THOUGHTS FROM THE SHOWER

Thoughts from the SHOWER:

My hands are shampooing, but my mind is conditioning.  I am still reflective after this summer of retros.  The season of turning and twisting planets, of shadows and light, is still creasing my brain and stirring my heart. The energy is eclipsing my thoughts as though I am a partner in the dance of the moon and sun.  I think it will always be that way no matter what the time of year.  I know each season of my life has its own curriculum and I am graded on growth, so I best pay attention.

But, this paying attention thing can get tricky.  Like shaving your legs over mosquito bites, you must look ahead.  We often don’t see very far, we worry too much about the obstacle in the way.

I’m reminded of the time I was 9. It was a hot August day and my Dad was driving back from Montauk. I was squeezed in the back seat of the Buick between my 2 sisters.  Dad suddenly pulled over at a scenic spot and my sisters and I bolted spontaneously for the ocean.  They were 6 and 12 years older than me and so brave! They rushed past me and ran towards the water as the wind sent their laughter back to me.

I was scared, the waves were so big! My eyes fixated on their huge white tops and the height of their roll, as I blindly followed my sisters across the sand.  I could not look away from the water coming towards me but there was no way I would be left behind!  I stared at the big wall of water in front of me and knew it would swallow me up – and of course as soon as my little feet hit the water line that was exactly what happened.  Pulled under, and flailing, I was saved by my older sissies! Whew!!

As my little body lay on the sand letting the sun dry my new short set and trying to catch my breath I learned a lesson. The lesson was to pay attention to the right thing.

Sometimes we pay attention to the wrong thing! We focus on the scary thing. We get carried out on a wave, tossed around a bit and aren’t sure where else we should look.  We are focused on the churning, the helpless feeling and all we can think about is the panic creeping in.  Without direction, the wave can possess us in all our vulnerability when it consumes all of our focus.

  Soon we are struggling against it, not seeing anything else in our line of vision except the obstacle- the wave. We tell ourselves this is where we need to focus, or we will drown.   We fixate on the wave and the fear of our wipe out. Whether we are 9 years old or much older obstacles like these WILL get the best of us, if we focus on nothing else!  The best thing we can do is pay attention to what is past the wave, focus on the other side of it, our power to get there. The horizon is the place that deserves our attention. When we look ahead past the obstacle and into divine light we find our power.

My sisters were there to pull me out of the drink that day. But the lesson I learned at 9 years old on a random beach at Montauk NY, has often repeated on me. Instead of letting the waves of life wipe me out I sometimes need reminding to look towards the horizon. To take light inward and find my power to best the waves that roar at me. Fear is a good teacher when you don’t let it take your breath away.

Sometimes we pay more attention to the obstruction , instead of looking past it.

This morning, standing in the shower, washing my face I open my eyes.  I wonder if my dog has joined me in the bathroom or is elsewhere making mischief.   I look out the shower doors.  Despite all the steam in the room only one side of the glass door is foggy and spotted with rain.  The other crystal clear so I can see past it.

Wow! I look through the clear side to see if Sparky is there. And my brain clicks like watch gears in place. Spirit brings the message home.

I've have a synchronization....an aha moment...

We Choose which side we want to see! The scenery is very different when we look past the obstruction. The horizon holds Clarity!

As I dry off I am in gratitude.  I now understand why the memory of that random day in Montauk had washed over me in the shower. Thanks Spirit! I get it!

We can’t get to the life we dream of, if we focus on the things in our way. We must see past the obstacles and things that obstruct our view.   Be far sighted!  Everything has 2 sides. One is distorted and confusing and foggy and obstructed. The other one is clear and open and easy.  We choose what we look at. We choose our focus.  The wave or the other side. We get caught in the wave when we should look past it. The horizon is where Spirit and our power live.

This paying attention is tricky.  I must pay attention to what I am paying attention too.   Wow, great shower!  Peace and love Georgia Rose